why do most of my friends bother me. one is needy, another not so bright, one shuns me for not believing her religion, another on drugs (that relationship is finished), another had a baby, got married and moved across the country so never talks to me anymore like i dont matter, another friend is conservative and i am liberal, another...homeless.
as you can see my only friend that i feel i can fully be myself with is my boyfriend, but i dont want JUST a boyfriend, i want a best girlfriend as well. i used to but she was the homeless one, we were best best friends for the longest time until she brought over her abusive boyfriend to live with me and he would knock her teeth out, cheat on her, hit her and she would still stay with him so i had to say get out of my house to both of them.
maybe im not picky, maybe i just dont have a nice selection of friends. the one thing i do appreciate though is that i can trust them all. it's just the fact that i cannot always fully be myself around them. it makes me not want to talk to them because some critisize if i speak my mind.
i plan on meeting new people in the fall. i am visiting my friend at the moment across the country, but people in general just dont do me justice. they are nice, and then they screw you, or they promise you something and then forget, or lie. or they are just too slow in the head they can't keep up. i am an advocate of special needs but there is a difference between working with someone slow and being their friend. we have known eachother for years and years, went to school together but they are just not up to par. i dont know if i should let these people go all at once, and start from scratch? i already dropped 2 people this year, and 1 (my besty) last year and another (my childhood besty) the year before that due to drugs, etc. so am i looking in the wrong places? is this my fault? dont know what to do or how to meet a decent person. i live in a nice town, i am just a unique person with different views i think than most people so its hard for people to understand me i think. at least my boyfriend does and we have been together 6 years, but he is a man so its not the same as a lady friend. does all this makes sense? so what should i do
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