It seems like i do something nice, took the kids out to dinner, we never go out to eat & tonight the dryer breaks. I'm so tired and it seems like when i do something nice i pay for it.
Sick of crying, tired of trying. Yeah, i'm smiling but inside i'm dying.
I don't go out, don't drink, don't smoke, have a good job, do for my children - who seem to walk all over me at times as well.
I'm just so tired of being what i'm suppost to be. I've been alone for years because 8 thought raising my kids is more important.
But i'm tired of always being pushed back down.
I'm tired of having no friends and no real family.
I just want to give up. Whats the point in trying to keep doing the right things?
Everyone seems so fake to me, yeah i could try to share with someone and i'd get those fake smiles and fake we're here for you - for a few weeks, maybe even a month but everyone goes back to thier lives and 8 go back into my rut.
I don't smoke or drink and that seems to be an issue with everyone 8 know. Even the people from out church. I'm the out-casted one because of it.
I don't understand.
I just don't get it.
I do what is suppost to be right and still get kick back down, time and time again.
So, is going out to the bars the answer? Going out sleeping around?
Honestly, i don't have money for that and don't understand where most do.
Why? I just don't understand.
This is more or a rant than a question - thanks for reading.
Guess i'll get some sleep i have responsabilites tomorrow - won't want to scew up!
Answer by DreainCO at 11:25 AM on Nov. 25, 2012
Answer by ILovemyPaulie at 7:53 AM on Nov. 25, 2012
Answer by staciandababy at 4:06 AM on Nov. 25, 2012
Answer by louise2 at 6:31 AM on Nov. 25, 2012
Hang in there, get some rest & hopefully tomorrow is a better day. Start delegating some of the chores & try to make some time for yourself. If mommy's happy then everyone's happy- ya know. :)
Answer by mrsmom110 at 7:42 AM on Nov. 25, 2012
Answer by Sarah961 at 10:27 PM on Nov. 25, 2012
Answer by booklover545 at 3:49 PM on Nov. 27, 2012
Answer by smiley745 at 2:49 PM on Dec. 5, 2012