It started when I was 4-6 years old with my mother bf raping me in my ass, he said it was my punishment for being a bad girl. Then from the age of 5-10 age my mother would stick her fingers inside me saying there was something inside me that needed to come out. When I was 13 I was dating a guy and he knew I was not ready for sex so he took me to a secluded spot and raped me when I got home I quickly showered and washed away all signs of abuse and force... Mud, dirt,blood, who I was. I found out I was pregnant and lost the baby at 5 months. The dr's held the baby out for me and said it was a baby girl her name was going to be sage. I knew I lost the baby because my mother used to drug me and beat me repeatidly. Do you think since I have been through all this I will end up like her? It makes me sick to even think of raping a child or anyone for that matter. But I believe in guardian angels and I believe Sage is mine. Do you believe in them?
Answer by PartyGalAnne at 1:31 PM on Feb. 5, 2013
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Answer by ohwrite at 9:06 AM on Feb. 5, 2013
Do you think since I have been through all this I will end up like her? It makes me sick to even think of raping a child or anyone for that matter.
you answered your own question, although it is one you should ask a psychiatrist and not a bunch of strangers on the internet.
. Do you believe in them?
no. and honestly how are you going to ask questions like "what's your favorite animal" at the same time you state that you cut yourself and were raped all your life?
Answer by tnm786 at 9:12 AM on Feb. 5, 2013
Answer by ILovemyPaulie at 9:30 AM on Feb. 5, 2013
realize my husband is not going to hurt me and now I actually enjoy anal sex sorry if thats tmi. Whenever I start to feel frightened I slow down look at my husband and he knows to tell me he wont hurt me he loves me and we can stop if I want. He is very understanding and helps me with those problems
did you not post before that your husband has been abusive to you?
Answer by Anonymous at 10:54 AM on Feb. 5, 2013
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