How can I keep it when all that's going on around me is bad?? I don't understand how a god can let people suffer the way they do. Why is there cancer that can't be cured? Why do we not have answers for that?? I am so tired of people telling me to keep the faith and pray. I have done that until I am blue in the face and NOTHING ever happens.
I am so tired of all the bad happening. I talked to my sister last night and she is in the hospital again and was telling me that they have found that the cancer has come back. They are going to be taking a biopsy of it, but by what my other sister told me this morning it's not looking good. It's terminal... Terminal, really??
My BIL called her ( my other sis) yesterday and told her what the doctors had said, and if they can't get it with this round of chemo and radiation they are giving her two months. WTF???!!! How can someone just put a time limit on somone like that??? It pisses me off so much when I hear that, that I just want to scream.
I am so scared for her and she (the one in the hospital) doesn't even know the full extent of it. He told my other sister that he wants to just keep it positive for her and not to even tell the kids. I can understand that, but now knowing what they have said just makes me angry.
Angry at God if there is one!!!!!! Why would he let someone hurt like that?? I hate hearing the line of "God only gives you what you can handle" because I don't believe that anymore... I mean really... how much is enough?? I know my sister means well when she tells me to keep the faith and pray, but I just can't anymore.
I have tried to pray and it just doesn't work.... The thing about it is, I don't even pray for me... I pray for others and their well being just to be let down. And for my sister to be taken from me.... Oh I am so mad... I can't even imagine the thought of my sister not being here.
I don't know what to do..... I can't stop crying. My heart just aches for her. She shouldn't have to be going through all of this. NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO GO THROUGH IT!! cancer sucks!!!
But I guess there isn't money in a cure, right?? A lot of times that is what it boils down to. Faith seems to just mean nothing... if you don't have money then you can't be helped... I hate the system that we live in!!!
I am sorry to be so negative, but it just seems like that's all that our family has been handed. We do right by others and what do we get... NOTHING!!!!!!!!! I sit here and think of what I have to get done with my eyes and it's so small compared to what she is having to go through.
I don't know where to turn anymore..... :'(
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