Yesterday I posted about a little girl I call my niece getting hit by a car (link here). There is no familial link, but our families are close and we consider each other's kids our own.
In the past hour or so I've realized that I'm NOT ok with what happened yesterday morning. It's been about 30 hours since I saw her get hit, no more than 2 feet in front of me, and al lI can think about is: what about me? Everyone is coming over to see how she is, I've even visited more than once. My kids wanted to get her a stuffed animal to help her feel better. I was totally supportive of that.
But, what about me? She was in MY care. *I* was responsible for her. She got hurt on MY watch. But, everyone who comes over just brings things for her and her siblings. NO ONE has bothered to ask me how I'M doing now. In fact, I got shoved off to the side and ignored once it was known that I was not the little girl's mother. I treat her like mine. I love her like mine. I discipline her like mine. When she's in my care, she's my second daughter.
I'm not ok. While babysitting her two younger siblings while mom and dad were at the ER with her all I had was what happened to her playing and replaying in my head; for THREE HOURS. I had nothing to distract me or keep me busy.
So, what about me? Aren't I important too? Don't I get some consideration for experiencing this traumaitc event too? Does anyone care about me?
Am I being selfish and overemotional? I'm sitting here sobbing as I type this.
Please be nice. I feel bad enough already. If your first response is to be 100% bitch and yell at me, please don't. Sincere, honest ansers please.
Answer by Ballad at 5:40 PM on Feb. 20, 2013
Answer by wendythewriter at 6:04 PM on Feb. 20, 2013
Answer by sunshine196 at 6:28 PM on Feb. 20, 2013
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Answer by staciandababy at 5:47 PM on Feb. 20, 2013
Answer by wendythewriter at 6:19 PM on Feb. 20, 2013
Answer by Anonymous at 10:15 PM on Feb. 20, 2013
Answer by KristiS11384 at 7:02 PM on Feb. 20, 2013