Let me start off by saying that I love my son to death. I will never hurt him, and he's healthy, and extremely smart. I show him love, and so does everyone around him.
I got pregnant at 19. I'm 21 now, my son is 2. And honestly, I'm not enjoying mother hood at all. Ever since I had my son, I've felt different. My attitude has changed. I'm always sad, upset, or stressed. My mind doesn't rest, seriously! I've realized being a mom I hard!! So hard that I honestly don't want to have any ore kids. Sometimes I feel like I want to go crazy. Just run away, and disappear for a very long time... My son makes me laugh and smile, and makes my heart melt. But he also makes me feel like I'm seriously going to lose it one day. He doesn't obey me, he cries A LOT, and he throws crazy tantrums.
Right now I'm not in school, and I don't have a job. It's hard for me to even find a baby sitter, and daycare is too expensive. His dad is great with him. He takes him anytime I ask him to. And honestly, he is with his dad more then he's with me. Him and his dad have a stronger bond. I feel like sometimes, I need help. Mentally and emotionally. I don't have money for a doctor!
I love my son. And I really do wish I can be a better mom, but my mental state is not there right now. I want to run away, And get my stuff/life together. Would I be selfish?! If I just left him with his dad for awhile. And get a job, go to school, and get my own place... My boyfriend helps me a lot with my son also... But that's still not enough!!!!
Sorry if I offended anyone.
Wish I would have known before I got pregnant that I was one of those Mona who doesn't deserve a beautiful blessing!!!!
Asked by Anonymous at 10:28 PM on May. 9, 2013 in General Parenting
Answer by Anonymous at 10:32 PM on May. 9, 2013
I'm throwing out the BS flag.
Answer by Anonymous at 10:35 PM on May. 9, 2013
Answer by virginiamama71 at 10:35 PM on May. 9, 2013
Answer by pinkparcel at 10:38 PM on May. 9, 2013
Answer by Anonymous at 10:42 PM on May. 9, 2013
Answer by funlovinlady at 10:43 PM on May. 9, 2013
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