I need to kind of vent and get some advice at the same time..
I'm usually a very positive and happy person, I always used to have fun in anything I did and I seemed to never let anything Little phase me but since my son has been born(dec 2012), I have been feeling off my game.. I worry ALOT and have huge anxiety.. it tends to happen espeshally when my hubby is working out of town, I have no family or friends where I am so I have no one to really talk too who won't judge me or think that I'm crazy. I literally lay in bed at night time while my hubby is working nights and I will literally toss and turn, I end up having huge anxiety and I can't even catch my breath sometimes. Now, when my son was born, this wasn't a Huge deal but my son is now 8 months and it has gotten worse.. really bad.. to the point where I'm driving myself and my hubby crazy. He keeps calling me crazy and I feel crazy now. I dont know how to make this anxiety stop and idk how to control this depressed feeling.. I have tried everything from walking everyday to reading before bed, I just can't seem to shake this 'worried' feeling and it is literally getting between me and my hubby now. I feel that anxiety until I either text him about stuff thats bothering me, which seems to be Everything.. or, we fight over the past which is something that I am letting go.. but this anxiety has me strung and it won't let me go. I feel so deep in this feeling that I am starting to hate myself, the only thing that seems to keep me happy is my son but he is very clingy with me, I have breastfed this whole time and I am now trying to get him on the bottle so I can have some sort of peace and my own space during the night. I have never breastfed before so I am scared to dry up.. breastfeeding is a huge part of why I am feeling this.. I feel as if my son is very dependant on me, to the point where I can't get comfortable at night to be relaxed because he wants me positioned to feed him.. which is not comfortable for me anymore, or him. I bought formula but each time I engorge, I cave in cause I'm scared that I won't be able to do anything for my family if I'm in pain. My hubby is working out of town and so it's me and my 2 boys at home. I have no family and when I dried up with my first(I didnt breastfeed), it was so bad.. I couldn't even move out of bed, if it wasn't for my SO. I am freaking out.. idk how to help myself and today I am sad because I realize its me thats causing all of this drama with my hubby and I.. I love my family more then anything.. I dont want to lose it.. Sorry this is so long :( What do I do?
Asked by Anonymous at 5:16 PM on Aug. 18, 2013 in Health
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