I had no history of depression, and didn't get any PPD after my 1st baby. After my 2nd was born, I had so much discouragement, anxiety, anger - I felt completely incompetent. People say "Call your dr if you're having problems." And what? Tell her I'm a failure as a mother and person? I was miserable, and felt like I just sucked. I felt that my sweet girls deserved a better mother. When I finally allowed myself to think maybe it was PPD, that was the beginning of healing for me - at 6 mos pp. It wasn't overnight, but that was the first step. It sounds like you might have PPD. For some women, meds are like the sun breaking thru clouds; others find other things to be helpful and they don't need meds. One woman found help from Byron Katie's book Loving What Is (www.thework.com) - that may not be for you, but who knows? There are many options for you to consider, but please don't suffer in silence. You don't have to feel like this.
at 11:51 PM on Apr. 1, 2009