I cant remember my teen years.
Ages 4-12 I remember with great clarity.
Ages 13-17 are a blur. I have some memory, but not much.. certain days. certain events. I literally have been diagnosed as having memory gaps during that period of my life. my doctors believe it is because of my bi-polar mania; and that when I was suffering quite badly with it, and medicated, my brain wasn’t properly forming the memories, or I suppressed them, they truly have no "real" answers for me.
So. To my point. I have been having very vivid, very real dreams about people I encountered during that time. Things I did- Things I said-and while I don’t know for certain, I think they are real events that I am beginning to remember.
I am writing them down as I wake up.
Has this happened to you or do you have memory gaps? My doctors are all in Washington, 900 miles away; but I called and left a message. Some of the dreams are really disturbing.
Answer by rkoloms at 2:11 PM on May. 22, 2009
Answer by Anonymous at 2:11 PM on May. 22, 2009
Answer by jaksonsmommy at 2:12 PM on May. 22, 2009
rkoloms - I will, but I have to get my hands on my medical files first, and I want to speak with my old doctor about it because she knows me so well. Its not really something I think I can just hand over to a doctor who knows nothing about me or my past. I have a local doctor whos general practice but I need to see a psychiatrist for this I think
jaksons mommy- Yes I was raped by a friend but it was when I was 17 and I didn't have memory before that, so they aren't sure if that caused it to get worse. I do fear it was the medication.. which makes me scared to think what else it could have done to my brain
Answer by LuminousMom at 2:24 PM on May. 22, 2009
Anon that happens to me too.. sometimes I'll see something and just get a huge panic swell in me, like a certain car or a certain person or a situation.. other times I'll see something and go "Oh! Ive done that!" We went to yellowstone when I was 14 and I dont remember it, I have no memory of being there.. but I was watching a documentary on it and like a train hitting me I suddenly remembered being inside the old faithful lodge. Thats it though.. standing there is all I remember.
It emberesses me to think I was just some zombie walking around all those years. I feel bad.. my best friend has known me since I was 8 and she says she just learned to deal with it. She can tell me alot about those years that I dont remember
Answer by LuminousMom at 2:27 PM on May. 22, 2009
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