I wanted to give my oldest up for adoption. My family & Dh wouldn't let me. I had even found a family (my cousin) that wanted to adopt him. But I didn't think I could care for him. At the time we were very poor, my DH had a drug problem and I am severly BiPolar. When he was born I suffered with horrid PPD. I didn't want anything to do with him. I just wanted to sleep. He was a big baby (9lbs 5oz - 22in) and nursed for 45mins at a time and then was hungry a half hour later. I nursed him because I felt pressured by family and WIC, but I didn't want him to touch me.
Now, he's 3. I have another child that's 2. I didn't suffer PPD nearly as bad with him and we were able to bond more. Now, I feel like I have a favorite. And that makes me guilty. But I just don't feel the conection with my oldest. My Dh and him are close, but I'm not close with him... But I do with the baby.
Did anyone else deal with this? and what do you do?
Asked by Anonymous at 1:10 PM on Aug. 23, 2009 in General Parenting
Answer by emnasmom at 3:23 PM on Aug. 23, 2009
Answer by emnasmom at 3:24 PM on Aug. 23, 2009
Answer by apexmommy at 4:19 PM on Aug. 23, 2009