I get that way sometimes. My father was cruel to my mother (and me when I went through puberty and got chunky) about her weight. Unfortunately, I've carried that baggage with me and feel guilty- like of course my DH would want some tight little unmarred-by-child-birth body. I'm not as small as I used to be and, until recently (I've spent most of the last year working on this issue) really wouldn't have blamed him if he'd decided to cheat on me. Assinine, I know.
That said, asside from the body acceptance, I try to remember the value in the many other aspects of our relationship and what I provide for him there. I've made a commitment to always try to be kind, loving, and supportive of him. Just improving myself with that commitment goes a long way. Unfortunately, husband bashing is often considered "normal" these days and not partaking in those moan/vent sessions takes some getting used to.
at 7:51 AM on Oct. 29, 2009