No, I wonder if I'm truly happy all the time. I love my daughter and wouldn't change her, but I'm not in love with my SO anymore. I love him and he's a great man, but I'm not sexually attracted anymore. I still go through the motions for sex, but I'm not into it. I don't cheat or anything like that, so that's not an issue. I guess the fact is, is that I want my daughter to grow up with her mommy and daddy in the same house. So I stay, even though I don't have butterflies in my stomach when I see him. Truth is, he's gained like 30lbs since we met and he wasn't super thin to begin with. So, also I know I can't just leave him because he's gained weight. I do want him to lose it and that could change everything between us, all while making him much healthier. I am putting him on a diet this year and myself also, because I could lose 10lbs. So I'm not bursting at the seams in love, but we get along well with one another.
at 3:46 PM on Jan. 4, 2010