I dealt by realizing how precious life is and what an amazing gift my 2 year old daughter is. I don't know how I would have picked myself up without her. I blamed myself and questioned whether it happened because of something I did or didn't do. It was just so perfect, we decided to try for another baby, conceived the first try, I even felt great, then bam no heartbeat. A few months after the miscarriage DH & I decided we weren't ready for another baby or ready to risk a second miscarriage... turns out I was already pregnant again.
I was conceived immediately after my mother had a horrible miscarriage... if that baby had lived I wouldn't be here today. Same goes for the little girl growing inside me. I grieve for my lost baby but at the same time I can't help but be grateful for what I have and to appreciate life a little more because of it.
at 5:56 AM on Apr. 26, 2010