I am a new mom. My husband works nights so I am alone with our newborn son who has some very special needs. I haven't been able to sleep for more than an hour at a time in 3 weeks. Money is tight (but who isnt strapped for cash these days) which is why my husband works nights. We've been looking for a home church but we still dont have one. I'm stressed beyond belief, broken hearted, isolated and ashamed. The last two nights after hours upon hours of inconsoleable crying (both me and my baby) I cut my wrists. Not to try to kill myslef. Just to release my anger and frustration. I know this is a horrible way to cope. I feel ashamed and frustrated even more so by my desperate pleas prior to cutting for some help. I feel abandoned and ashamed of the cuts on my wrist. I know cant keep doing this but nothing seems to get better. Is God still here? Did He leave when I cut myself or what?
Asked by Anonymous at 10:50 PM on Oct. 17, 2008 in Religion & Beliefs
No sweetheart, I promise God is still with you. Though times are really hard Right now, he still loves you. I was once told that when you pray to God for something, he doesn't straight give it to you, but he gives you the opportunity to obtain it yourself. Time will come when you see that opportunity, but you have to keep your eyes and heart open to see it. I also agree that you should talk to a doctor about postpartum depression. Don'T feel ashamed, I was too depressed and only got an hour of sleep at a time with my son wen he was first born. Sleep will come soon enough. Keep praying to God, he will listen to your prayers. And I will also pray for you too.
Answer by cloud144 at 10:59 PM on Oct. 17, 2008
You need to talk to a Dr. about postpartum depression.
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