I'm a young mom...I've made big mistakes that I can't take back but I'm trying to get myself back on track. I'm 20, my daughter is 14 months. I go to school full time at one of the nicest colleges in my state. I'm studying Secondary education english along with a minor in spanish and arabic. I want to be an ESL teacher...I used to think I'd like to be a lawyer but that's a hectic lifestyle for someone who already has a child. I want to do something more family oriented and I've loved the idea of teaching for as long as I can remember. I live with my parents because I want to save money and get stable before I move out with my daughter.
When she was born, I had major psychological issues due to her dad leaving me after a 5 year relationship and post partum depression...we didn't bond like we should have...now we are getting very close.
I just get so scared some times...I'm afraid I'm not going to do well with her. What if I'm not a good mom? What if she hates me because I didn't take her father back when he tried to come back...he put me through hell and now he's moving because I wouldn't get back together with him...she's not going to know her dad because I did what I felt was right for myself and my daughter...he was very emotionally abusive, and he cheated, plus he left me 3 days before i gave birth and didn't return for months...during which time he got together with a women 15 years older than him with 5 kids and lived with her...broke my heart. My daughter might not understand that he father really only cares about one thing....controlling me and it took me a very long time to see that too. I'm just so worried she won't love me, or I'll mess up somehow.
I love her more than anything...I am content with the idea of staying single forever as long as I have my girl. I've grown up a lot and she has become the center of my universe (in a healthy way lol) but I can't help but worry that I might not turn out to be a good mom :(
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