good morning moms what better place to vent then cafe mom.
im sitting here laying in the hospital bed with a whole bunch of thoughts going threw my head so i"ll start off from Monday night,
monday night i was fine wasnt in any kind of pain at all well tuesday morning i wake up with contractions and i immediately got worried because im 3 months i knew this couldnt be good i went to the bathroom and started throwing up blood i then got light headed and kinda blacked out for few second i was supposed to be aking my daughters to school and my husband had allready left for work(he works 3 hours away)after that i got a really bad pain in my back and im still throwing up blood my daughter were panicking and my oldest called 911 then i told her to get the neighbor(one of my good friends) before the ambulance came, i had my neighbor call my husband and my mom when i got to the hospital they hooked me up to this machine to check me out i started throwing up again and then thats when i freaked out cause my water broke
now the doctor is telling me theres a chance the baby can live but in the back of my mind i really didnt believe that after all i was 3 months, ok so then they wanted me to push,
i pushed and pushed for about 2 hours and it just wasnt happening so the next thing was a c-section:(
they gave me a c-section and right after that they took me out of the room so that i can stitched back up they told me the baby was breathing and she had a strong heart beat but after that she just stopped breathing i was torn,im still torn i don't know really what to do or what to say,well ive been laying here in the hospital and i cant walk cant eat and barely can move but hopefully i"ll be discharged Friday & then were going to the mortuary to get the baby cremated,
i have had lots of visitors:family,friends,neighbors,co workers
but im the first in my family to miscarriage and i don't really have any one who understands because i mean how could u understand if u never experienced it,its like i gave birth to a child and then she died right there:( i never got to hold her while she was alive i don't i just feel empty now im thankful that God blessed me with two other beautiful daughters i really am but this is gonna take sometime for me to get over
_(*vent over) thanks for listening
please no rude comments
I lost my daughter at 34 weeks. I know what its like to have to bury a child. My heart goes out to you.
Answer by butterflyblue19 at 3:31 PM on Dec. 8, 2010
Answer by mommy_of_two388 at 3:32 PM on Dec. 8, 2010
Answer by scout_mom at 3:34 PM on Dec. 8, 2010
Answer by mompam at 3:34 PM on Dec. 8, 2010
Answer by tarakenyon06 at 3:34 PM on Dec. 8, 2010
Answer by momindiana at 3:35 PM on Dec. 8, 2010
I'm so sorry
Answer by TARARENEE at 3:36 PM on Dec. 8, 2010
Answer by jillrebecca3 at 3:37 PM on Dec. 8, 2010
Answer by SavageGrl at 3:42 PM on Dec. 8, 2010
Im so sorry. I had a miscarriage at 9 weeks and still have no idea what you could be feeling.
Answer by bellsandheels at 3:50 PM on Dec. 8, 2010