It's a subject more people are getting stronger in but I just can't open up to it. The most anyone knows is that I wasn't raped but I was touched and treated very inappropriately as a kid. I tended to block it out even when it happened. Today the SOB who did it had the nerve to send me a facebook request. Seeing it just made so much anger come over me. He came into the picture when I was a toddler and was with my mom for about 5 years til she left him. My siblings are biologically his. When they split, he became a total jerk and hypocrite and the abuse started when he had us over night for visitation. I never told my siblings, mom, family, authorities, or anyone. I feel so angry at my adult family members ESPECIALLY MY MOM for not knowing or making me feel safe enough to tell them. I have very little contact with any of them now cause we just don't get along. I'm kinda angry at myself for not telling my siblings what their father is (they have little contact with him since he's a crackhead). I get angry at my husband sometimes for touching me when I don't want to be touched. I just don't know what to do about it all. I started acting out and avoiding night visitation. I wish my mom would've noticed that and tried to help instead of punishing me. Then eventually he just didn't call or come by cause he's a dead beat dad. I've seen but not spoken to him a few times in years through my siblings but never confronted him. He acts like nothing happened. I don't know what to do with the anger. There's nothing I can prove so I don't want the pain and embarrassment of reporting him. I'm so mad at my family and feel like they wouldn't care even if they knew. I'm mad at him for doing that to me and having the nerve to preach about how being a slut or pervert is against god. I guess being a pedophile is ok to him. Where do I channel this? Who do I talk to? Does talking ever help? I also kinda feel guilty that I'm upset over this when there are other people who suffered actual rape and torture and for much longer than I did and weren't helped even when people knew. I read today that 65% of women experience some sort of sexual abuse at some point in their life and it infuriates me. How is this happening so much?! Why aren't we bein protected?! I'm just so upset and don't know what to do about it.Answer Question
Asked by Anonymous at 9:36 PM on Jan. 6, 2011 in Relationships
I believe there is something that frees itself from your tortured soul when you allow yourself to verbally set this secretive information free. It's like invisible baggage that you have carried around. Imagine how much lighter you would feel if you could just set it down. I wish you luck on your journey!
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