My daughter was born full-term. However, she was born with a condition called Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia. This meant that she needed surgery and also had other complications, meaning a stay in the NICU.
She's over two months old now and still there. She's recovering but I still have NO idea when she'll be home. The hospital that she's in is about 40 mins away. I haven't been able to go every day. My car isn't reliable enough and sometimes, I can't afford to. It KILLS ME. Everytime the nurses ask "are you gonna make it in today?"I feel guilty and I don't know what to say.
I feel horrible. I feel like my daughter knows if I'm not there. Then, last week, one of her occupational therapists said "when you're not here, she misses you." That didn't help. I feel like a bad mother..but it's out of my control. I HATE IT! I guess I can't really answer you..but I can sympathize with you...it's really difficult.
at 7:31 PM on May. 25, 2009