Pissed as hell. I have so much pain and anger bottled up I can barley contain it. And I don't have anyone to talk to about it. My hubby is more of the, if I can't touch it I don't deal with it type. My mother decided a long time ago that I was to be there for her, so she has never been there for me. And my friends are sick of it.
What is it, My little sister? She tried to kill herself last year. She was deployed and held the fucking gun they issued her to her head more then once. She told me what she was doing I didn't freak out and when we agreed that it was time to get someone else involved I did. Yes, I spilled her guts but they (her commanding officers) had been told before that she was suicidal and they let her talk them out of it. Yes, she is a private person and I spilled her guts, but I wanted to ensure she dealt with everything. Yes, she tried to tell her husband he was to much of a dumb ass to listen. He even yelled at her from the metal hospital, so ya he is a dumb fuck. And he should have been the one she was telling, not me, but I knew she was in trouble and she needed someone so I listened.
And now a year later she is still angry with me and not talking to me. SHe has forgiven her husband and is making nice with everyone else. She has gotten back to herself for the most part. I don't think something like that goes away there is always the emotional scar. But she won't talk to me. ANd I am angry and so heart broken. We were bf we talked 1-2 times a week. And we talked about everything and anything.
I have mailed her a long letter 6 months ago, no response. I called her on Christmas, no answer, no response. I sent her a Christmas card, no response. When she was hurt I sent a get well card. Her birthday is coming up I was going to send a card, not expecting a response.
What else can I do, or not do? I am asking anonymously because this is still a public forum and this is dirty laundry. But I am out of ideas.
Asked by Anonymous at 9:07 AM on Feb. 9, 2011 in Relationships
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