Actually my 2nd pregnancy....
I gave up on the idea of having kids. My oldest was 8 and I have been trying for 6 years to get pregnant. I left my DH and hooked up with a fling, and wouldn't you know... I got pregnant. I was devestated. Really. (Hubby took me back when Mr. Fling said NO way would he be a father)
I didn't try to bond with her in the belly. I wouldn't entertain the thought of keeping her. When I found out I was pregnant I was 3 months along. So, chances of me miscarrying were low, that sucked!!!
Even going into labor I still wasn't sure what I was going to do. Putting her up for adoption was the best thing I could think of. Of course hubby and DD were upset by that, but my mind (I thought) was made up.
Once I saw her face, I started crying. I loved her instantly. I could not imagine giving her up. I was planning on just leaving her at the hospital, so sad.
I am SO glad I kept my baby girl!
at 9:04 PM on Feb. 26, 2011