has never been a great mom. Don't get me wrong she wasn't a druggie or a alcoholic but shes not just quite all there...if you get what I mean. Growing up if she did anything at my school or the band, or my softball & soccer team or at the church...it was so she looked like she was one of those mother that was involved & cared when really she didn't. She just wanted the attention & the praise. As an adult I have basically begged for her attention not for me but for my children. Don't get me wrong if I ask her to watch the kids, she will & she enjoys it...so do the kids, if i ask her to pick something up for me she will (only if its after church and she has her car...I'm getting there) but I have to pick her up because she has basically given her car to my cousin except she pays the payment and the insurance. Its driving me nuts! Growing up everyone else was more important than me. ( I am an only child) So cousins were more important & recieved the attention and the praise. It was always why can't you be like "so & so." When I got married & pregnant..hubby & I had a rough start after layoffs and stuff and within 2 weeks of living with my mom ( we had been on our own since graduation from highschool 2006) ( we moved in w/ her in2008 )she kicked us out because her sister & children& her mother needed to move in with her & they needed her more than I did......My mom can't even manage her own money. I pay her bills from her account once a month and she gets the rest to play with...which is usually 5-600 dollars...and by the second weeks shes broke. (Before she asked for my help her sisters & mother were sucking her dry of money, making her spend her money on them) Anyways...back to the cousin thing...now that my cousin is pregnant she wants to do everything she can for her even though she kicked me to the side. I was married I was in a stable relationship, he was trying to work. My cousin is in a off & on relationship with the same guy every week. It hurts that I am last and its not even so much me anymore I feel sorry for my children....I want them to have a grandmother. (Hubbys mother is not in the picture, thats another long story) Anyways like I said I hurt for my children they deserve so much more than what they are getting. Am I being too selfish? Is it wrong that for once I want my family to be put before people that are just using her? I am so thankful that I still have my granny to be with my kids. My granny is everything to me if it wasn't for her I don't I know what a good mother would be. But my granny won't be here forever...Hubby wants to right her off but I know that when it comes that my mom needs help no one will be there for even though she has been there for them. And because even though I don't like her at times she is my mother and I do love her I will be there. I just needed to vent....sorry so long...any advice is welcomed!
Answer by darter at 10:04 PM on Mar. 25, 2011
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