I was molested as a child by my father, who thankfully is dead. Anyway, I have a 2 yr old girl who loves her tummy to be rubbed. Matter of fact she demands it!! lol When I rub her tummy I start feeling icky, sick, I can't really describe it, but I know this is one more thing it seems that my F'ing father has done to me and makes me feel like that when I should be feeling contentment and joy. And yes, I have been thru all the shrinks, all the meds.....including severe panic attacks when I think I see him, when I know hes dead. Its juist too bad I couldn't have been the one to torture him and making his last breaths agony like the brain cancer did. But anyway back to the subject, is there anyone else out there that thinks or feels or whatever when they are bathing, changing the baby? I have improved alot with this situation, but its still hard. Any helpful tips or advice?
Please do not tell me to pray the lord and he will give me guidance and forgivness and all that other stuff. I prayed to the ALMIGHTY every night whenmy father came into the room and he didn't seem to help me in anyway. So he can't help me now. I am also sorry if this offended anyone, but I did caution you.
Also, I don't want anyone to bash me either or get on my case or just being mean. I am tired of it. I am putting this question out there anonymously so I don't feel weird when I am answering someones question.
I wasn't sure what category to put this in.......
Asked by Anonymous at 2:03 AM on Mar. 26, 2011 in General Parenting
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