I need help, I lost my finance 16 years ago tragically he was killed, but on the night he was killed we had a horrible argument which I wish I could take back, our last words were f you and f you too.....I have since married and have two beautiful children, but I cry almost once a week because I miss him soooooo much and I never had the chance to say I am sorry and I love him. He was my soulmate, the love of my life. He was my everything my first true kiss, sexual experience and the father of the first child I lost. He comes to me in my dreams all of the time especially to say I am sorry. I have woke up several times crying and my husband asks whats wrong and I tell him I had a bad dream. Last night he came to me again I did not see his face but we talked by phone and I made him promise to call me back and I woke up. I am so scared that the dreams will stop and I wont get to see him or talk to him any longer. I can see him so vividly in my dreams he always tells me how much he loves me and will I marry him. I have been to therapy but I feel they just want to bill my insurance company and putting me on medication that I don't want. If anybody knows how to help me or at least know what I am going through I would appreciate it. I can't talk to friends or family because they do not understand they just tell me life goes on, but if they only knew what I am going through I don't think they would give me the advice they have given. I am crying writing this because my heart is broken and I don't know how to fix it, now I understand when they say people die of a broken heart because for the last 16 years I feel like there is just a band aid on a gunshot wound which is my heart and my husband does not know how I feel, and I am scared of him every finding out about it. He knows about the situation but he thinks I have moved past this situation.
Asked by Anonymous at 4:56 PM on Apr. 18, 2011 in Relationships
I think you need to forgive yourself and realize that everyone makes mistakes.
Answer by amazinggrace83 at 4:59 PM on Apr. 18, 2011
Answer by elizabr at 5:02 PM on Apr. 18, 2011
Answer by June_Mama09 at 5:03 PM on Apr. 18, 2011
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Answer by Autumn07 at 5:09 PM on Apr. 18, 2011
Answer by brypmom at 5:09 PM on Apr. 18, 2011
Answer by flipper4u21 at 5:57 PM on Apr. 18, 2011