From 2003 to the end of 2005 I was sick. I never ate. I literally lived off maybe 6 pizza rolls once or twice a week. I know weird choice of food to pick to eat lol Once I found out I was preg w my son in the beginning of 06 I knew I had to stop. I ate normal. It killed me, but I did it for my son. Ever since then if I try to diet - I find myself back in that position, so I never went on a diet (never gained anymore weight) but never lost my baby fat. The past two weeks, I've been in that position. I've been eating once a day at least. I make sure I eat at least once a day & someone sees me eat. Eating disoders run in my fam. My older sis was sick for a few years back. My grandma has always done the yo yo dieting and gets to the point that she doesn't eat. My mom was sick from the time she was 12 to 22 besides when she was preg w my sis and me. My mom is back in her ways and has been for a few years now. My sister is "dieting" and exercising like nuts. Well today, I had the first feeling of actually purging. I never had that urge before. Normally I would just like I guess you would say punish myself if I ate too much one day, if I even did do that. Today I ate WAY too much. I was literally going nuts. I was trying to purge & just couldn't. I had to actually leave the house bc I was going nuts and went for a walk. I felt like I just had to get that out of my body. I had to. I felt soooo gross & sooo fat. I feel like I already gained my 10lbs back. My parents are aware of my illness for those few years. They know I can't count calories either or I will end up not eating. I haven't told anyone about the past two weeks. They think its bc I'm doing the right things. I also haven't told anyone about the purging incident. I'm scared. I'm aware of this. I can fix it now. I just don't know how to or if I even want to yet. I still have at least 20lbs to go... i can't stop thinking about what I ate today. My SO is like whats wrong babe whats wrong with you and I can't tell him that I'm obessing over this. I'm on a bad path & I know it. Support plz ? Thanks.
Asked by Anonymous at 8:32 PM on Apr. 20, 2011 in Health
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