I had a falling out with my mother a few months ago. It started with me sticking to my guns that she not say the "N word" around my then 4yo DD and ended a couple weeks later with her IM'ing my cousin's wife all these embellishments and lies and saying just about the worse things a mother could say about her child. I sent an e-mail letting her know I saw the chat and how hurt I was. I haven't heard back from her and I haven't contacted her since.
So fast forward 7 months and it keeps coming to my mind that my mom isn't going to live too much longer. She has severe asthma, emphysema, and COPD; all the while she smokes almost non-stop. I go back and forth on if I will be okay with the possibility of her dying without ever talking to her again and/or making amends.
If I were to swallow my pride and make that contact, I can't help but to think I will loose all self-respect. And any relationship we might be able to form wouldn't be "real." I would always be on guard, I would never be able to think of her or treat her as I did, let's say, 8 months ago. So I question if my self-respect is worth a superficial relationship with a woman who has made it pretty darn clear that she doesn't like me.
We had a great relationship until I moved out of the house...that's when things went downhill very quickly. That was over 16 years ago. It's been kind of rocky since.
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