I was not sure where to post this, but figured here would be okay.
I was sexually abused as a child and into my teens. For almost a year before I was taken from my hope and placed into protective custody, I wold sleep at night with a knife under my pillow. I kept swearing to myself that I would kill him next time he (my father) came in. And each time he did, I laid there stone cold unable to move or do anything.
I did get lots of counseling and help. I had so many emotions to deal with, shame, disgust, self loathing, depression. But guilt as well. Part of me has always felt like I could have prevented him from hurting someone else. Part of me has always feared that he would do it again to someone else. While he did go to court, there was not "physical" evidence. (I had already become sexually active with my boyfriend by the time I got out). It was my word against his, and you can't put a man away based solely on that.
My sister in law asked me about everything and I was honest, she then told me that she thinks "dad" molested my niece. Course my brother would never believe this. My SIL is doing what she can to get my niece help and what she can do legally, all with out my brother knowing because he would not support her at all.
Part of me feels guilty. I could have ended this pathetic mans life years ago. I could have spared my niece this pain. I know I didn't molest her, but.... I could have been the last person he terrorized, and I couldn't do it. I feel guilty.
I know I shouldn't feel guilty, but I do. How do I make this feeling go away?
Asked by Anonymous at 12:04 PM on May. 8, 2011 in Parenting Debate
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