I have some mental health issues, I have zero family, ok, well thats not true. I have a handicap mother, and a sister that lives out of state and two cousins I've met like...a handfull of times, also out of state. I am at this point where all I want to do is die, I just want it to be over with. I suffer with something called CPRS I've been on social security for a few years, my son was an accident, I never wanted children as I knew it would be hard to handle also having chronic pain and schizo-affective disorder but as some of us know, accidents happen. This month alone I've gotten kicked off of social securty because I underwent a oppration called a spinal stimulator trail which basically took about 80% of my pain away. This was a 7 day trial, and because I had a positive trail not only did I assume I would go ahead with the perminite surgery, but social security did as well and with that surgery, it would cure the MAIN reason I was on SSDI- two weeks after my review came back and I learned I was getting booted off the program, like, cold turkey, after one month I had NO income coming in and hadn't worked in 3 years. I get a letter from my insurance Co. saying my Perminate neurospinal stimulator was denied. First off WHY would they give someone that suffers with chronic pain a chance to experience that form of relief which I can only describ as heven sent- to just turn around and say no to the perminate? the opperations go hand in hand, you can't get one without getting hte other. They said it was because there wasnt enough medical evidence stating that this was my only option. beacuse I REFUSE to take narcotics- So basically because I'm not willing to become a drug addict (given my mental issues which is higly likely) I'm being left to suffer. I can't shake this feeling of just going into my room, and ending it all. I need to be checked in at a mental health facility but I have no one to care for my son, I call the state and the hospitals for help and no one will give me any options. so after rejection after rejection I've still been left with no forms of help. I get booted off of social securty, I have no job, my last check was issued on the 3rd, and I have less than a month before I need to figure out how to start paying for things, and the reason I was booted off was because my disorder was supposed to be "cured" and now the insurance co denied the "cure" but it will take up to 30 MOS to appeal the SSA. its seriously not worth it... I'm on the edge, and I just want to let myself go. I feel like I have no other options. I don't want to suffer with this intense pain I have any longer. I'm 22, I can't live another 50+ years with this.Answer Question
Asked by Anonymous at 10:36 PM on May. 11, 2011 in Health
Answer by Anonymous at 10:42 PM on May. 11, 2011
Answer by Rosehawk at 10:49 PM on May. 11, 2011
I am really sorry you are going through such a rough time right now & i understand how it feels to think you will never see that light at the end of the tunnel but.. NOTHING in this world is worth taking your life for- your Son needs his Mommy- what would happen to him without you? Please call the Suicide Hot line- #1-800-784-2433 someone will help you get through this crisis.. Call them right now-Please..
Answer by daisyb at 10:54 PM on May. 11, 2011
Answer by Anonymous at 11:07 PM on May. 11, 2011
Answer by amessageofhope at 1:27 AM on May. 12, 2011
Answer by RedRowan at 9:08 AM on May. 12, 2011
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