I'm in such a low bad place right now. I should ask for help, have asked for help but am still as lost as ever. My mil lives about 45 mins away and has said she will come and help. She will come one day and say she will be here one day a week to help out. That was 2 weeks ago and then she went away for a week after telling me and the kids she would be back. I haven't heard from her about when she's coming back. My mom told me to let her know what I need and she will come and help but that I need to tell her. So I totally broke down the other night and told here how things are and she said she would take a day off work because she has so much vacation time to use up and come and help out. I was expecting her to be here today and she said she'd be here after work.
I'm really not doing good and am afraid I'll get depression again or that I may already have it again.
I can't keep up with the house, the bills and the kids. I feel that if I can just get dh (he had a vasectomy 11 daya ago and is having awful complications) well again or get someone to come and lend a hand like he would be doing if he wasen't laid up trying to heal from the complications. He would be working and making money to cover the cost of things. The kids are no doubt feeling the stress and such that I am feeling and it is affecting their behaviour making things more stressful. They know things aren't right right now and I feel so guilty that they are suffering through this too.
I feel like the world is crashing around me, I've left my girls eating lunch while I escaped, called my mom and told her to not bother coming in the evening and sit here crying while I write this. Things feel so hopeless right now. I know this isn't true. DH wishes he could help, I'm a christaian and have been praying but I can't shake this helpless feeling.
Why should I keep asking for help? I know I should for my kids sakes but it's just one more disapointing thing that isn't helping. How do I tell the people that when they offer to help and don't come through that they're causing more damage than good?
Answer by Harmy at 12:49 PM on May. 17, 2011
Answer by Dahis at 12:39 PM on May. 17, 2011
Answer by Harmy at 12:43 PM on May. 17, 2011
Answer by Dahis at 12:40 PM on May. 17, 2011
Answer by justanotherjen at 1:33 PM on May. 17, 2011