I've had three kids, and I'm 25 years old. My youngest is 18 mos. I'm pretty much done having kids. I had my body ravaged by pregnancy last time to the point of bed rest, and my husband and I agreed that while we have at least 10 more years to decide for sure, adoption is always an option, and I'm ready to spend the last half of my 20's focusing on me- my career, my health, my self esteem.
I have three beautiful children and I love them very, very much. Each one is a blessing, but I haven't had my period for about 2 months now (I'm on Mirena) and I broke down crying today. I've finally started to regain my confidence, I'm working out and dieting to lose weight. I feel pretty for the first time since High School and I'm so proud of what I've accomplished and how far I've come. I finally finished my AA and next fall I start my BS. I don't feel at ALL selfish for wanting to continue my education and lose weight. I'm 40 lbs overweight and my health is deteriorating. I feel 10 years older than I actually am... I feel like it's okay to focus on my dreams and goals, and attempt to send my life in a meaningful direction.
Its not that I wouldn't LOVE this baby and we wouldn't feel blessed to have him/her... it's just that I'm not ready for another. 3 preschool-aged kids already...I've been pregnant for 27 months out of the last 6 years... that's a little less than half. I'm so upset. If God thinks I can do this then I'll do it- cuz clearly not even birth control can come in the way of His plans... but I just wish that he'd clue me in on that plan, before He sabatoged my body again...stretch marks, baby fat... I'm so crushed. I've worked my BUTT off the last few mos trying to lose weight and I've lost 15 lbs. Lord knows I'll gain it back and then some. My self-esteem is already in the crapper, and now I feel like it's hopeless...
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