went to a psychologist this morning for the first time ever, i've been struggling with anxiety/anxiety attacks for 2 years now and i finally decided to take control and get help. turns out i have anxiety disorder and PTSD surrounding a traumatizing event that happened to my 2 year old. hopefully i can just keep up with talking to this guy weekly and not resort to anti-depressants.
anyway, hubby and i are currently not living together, since Mother's Day. he went to stay with his mom because he also has PTSD from his overseas tour in 07-08, and was using marijuana as a self-medication technique, and ended up needing it so badly he was draining us financially. not to mention he's on probation for the offense surrounding the traumatic event and shouldn't be using illegal drugs anyway.
so i call him when i get back from the appt, eager to share how it went. it was around 11am, and he was half-asleep still, and in a crabby mood. so this turned me off to want to share my problems with him, and i told him to call me later. well he did about an hour and a half later, and didn't seem real interested in what was going on with me. and that hurts because i am always anxious to hear how his therapy is going. it seems he's so self-absorbed that only his problems are valid.
well anyway, i tried not to let that rain on my parade and then he proceeds to tell me that he was "picking up the house for mom (my mil) today". now that struck a nerve. he's been unemployed for over a month and when he was living here he didn't lift a finger to housework or parenting, unless i asked and even then he rolled his eyes and had a pissy attitude about it. so now here i am busting my ass to play both roles while he's gone (sleeping all fuckin day), cleaning the house, maintaining the budget/bills, and he shares that he's going to willingly and happily pick up for his mom. talk about feeling under-appreciated. he seemed to have no clue why that would upset me.
i am happy that he respects his mom and her household, and i've always known he has momma's boy syndrome, and its usually them two versus me. however we're suppose to be working on ourselves and our marriage and i just don't get the impression that he's doing that. i don't even feel like he misses his kids or me, even though he says he does. i feel like he's just reaping the benefits of living with his mom again, having her all but wipe his butt for him.
anyway how would you have felt by this stuff? i can be a bit over-sensitive so please feel free to share your opinion either way. as my psychologist told me today.. "nobody can control your emotions but you" lol
Answer by 5heartbeats at 5:58 PM on May. 19, 2011
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