I'm tired of struggling, tires of being alone. I'm just so tired of everything! Why does everything have to be so hard.
I've been a single mom for years. I don't drink, don't smoke, don't go out on dates. First, who has the money for that stuff? Second, my kids need me, I'm mom first.
But I've lost my motivation, I just wanna sit here and cry. I'm tired of the battle and just wanna give up! I have a decent job & do well at my job. I make decent money but its never enough.
We live in a tralor / modular home, I have an old car. I just want something new. Something nice.
I feel like I've worked so hard for... what? My kids never get a summer vacation, not even a day out. Not that I don't have vacation time & pay, but who has the extra money?
I used to wonder how someone could just give up their kids and let someone else have them. But I'm just tired of the fight and struggles.
I had my first dd at 18, kept her and did fine. At 24, got married - had two children and divorced in 2005. He didn't have a paychack one week, he had to pay for some other womans abortion.
I could not stay with him & of course that was my fault, I should have forgiven him, I've already heard all that - but yes, there were other issues between us - but yes, I know, if id been taking care of him at home, none of this would have happened.
I get it - its all my fault & the life I have now is my punishement. Its my fault he also left his kids to be a deadbeat dad.
Well, I give up. I can't do this anymore. I'm tired. Just tired of thinking, I'm doing what's right just to be pushed back down.
A part of me what's to drink, smoke and be a slut hell get thrown in jail. Why the hell not! Being everything good isn't seem to be working.
Asked by Anonymous at 7:23 AM on Jun. 28, 2011 in General Parenting
Answer by momplus01 at 10:36 AM on Jun. 28, 2011
Answer by tspillane at 7:30 AM on Jun. 28, 2011
Answer by Anonymous at 7:36 AM on Jun. 28, 2011
Answer by samurai_chica at 8:21 AM on Jun. 28, 2011
You sound depressed mama. You need to talk to a counselor, your minister, somebody. Also, since you are active in your church, can you & your kids participate in any family activities the church does? When money is tight, sometimes it's not about accumulating things, it's about accumulating memories! :) Things WILL get better! GL! :) *Hugs*
Answer by mrsmom110 at 7:43 AM on Jun. 28, 2011
Answer by PANZONSMOM at 10:02 AM on Jun. 28, 2011
Answer by Dr.Donna at 7:32 AM on Jun. 28, 2011
Answer by admckenzie at 7:33 AM on Jun. 28, 2011
Answer by 34andcounting at 1:32 AM on Jun. 29, 2011