I feel so down. I'm a Christian but struggle. I work 7 days a week and haven't been going to church, I have been reading my devotions and praying but never feel god thinks it's good enough. I have two beautiful daughters and a week ago suffered and missed miscarriage at 9 weeks. I had begged my hubby for another child and he agreed to start trying in sept but while I was recovering from a kidney infection I became pregnant. He was totally happy. I was shocked. I was fine waiting and then boom it happened. I struggle with that kinda stuff. I was severely nauseas all day and thought this was for sure Gods will. I had seen the baby and heartbeat a few times but at my routine 9 week ultrasound the baby had passed. Most likely the same day. This completely devastated me. I felt guilty that I ever felt bad about being pregnant and that I was put off at first. I still loved the baby. I prayed right then in there to God that I would be thankful regardless because I want to trust him. For reasons I didnt know this could have been for a reason. I knew I needed God more than ever and prayed and prayed. Now I feel hopeless. I want another child and have extreme baby fever. I feel God thinks I'm a bad person for thinking that. Having children have been so important to me. I feel bad that I asked my husband to have another. I feel guilty that i would like to have more children than he wants. He wants to have another baby but then I feel sad that it could be my last pregnancy. I'm continually getting ahead of myself and I hate it. I want to take each day at a time but i struggle. I'm grateful for my family and I'm only 22 so I'm sure a lot could change down the line but right now I feel terrible and have an immense amount of emotions flying through my head. :(:(:(Answer Question
Asked by Anonymous at 5:27 PM on Jul. 3, 2011 in Religion & Beliefs
Answer by jeanclaudia at 5:35 PM on Jul. 3, 2011
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Answer by LeJane at 5:53 PM on Jul. 3, 2011
I am so sorry for your family's loss. I believe most everyone has wished for " a better time" to be pregnant, but you didn't pray to loose the baby did you. These things happen. It is hard but it seems to me you are staying true to your faith. If you still feel this is your fault, remember, if you have asked God for forgiveness, then He has forgiven you. Don't persecute yourself any longer!
Bless you and hang in there! when you get to the end of your rope, hang on tighter.
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