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BFP: The Big Fat Positive
November 6, 2009 at 12:00 PM by Cafe MicheleZ - Comments (6)
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I'm going to be honest...when I was in the trying to conceive (TTC) groups and someone would get a big fat positive (BFP) on their pregnancy test, I would get sad. I was so very happy for the woman getting the BFP, but it made me think...when is this going to happen for me? Why isn't it me?
Well really, at first I was thinking what the heck is BFP? Then I learned. Then I felt sad for myself. I was a little behind on all the lingo.
I eventually got my BFP and as most of you know, readying for twins next month. I got so much baby dust from fellow CafeMoms, I am sure it helped. So thank you!
And as some of you may know...I still have my positive pregnancy test. It's been under my bathroom sink since March. (OK, weird, I know.) I need to take a photo of it and throw it out, yes. But I cannot tell you how my heart filled when I first saw the two lines telling me I was pregnant. I just couldn't toss it right away.
If you were or are TTC, did you feel like I did -- feeling sad when learning of another's BFP? If you eventually got your own BFP, did you save the test or take photos of it?
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I can remember being sad when others announced their BFPs after my m/c... especially those who had not been trying for as long as I had. I realized that I was being selfish, and I WAS happy for them... I just couldn't help but be sad for myself as well.
As for the BFP stick itself, I didn't do a home test for my first two pregnancies. My first pregnancy (m/c at 11 weeks) was a clomid pregnancy and I was going monthly for bloodwork to confirm ovulation and check for pregnancy. After the bloodwork came up positive I never bothered to do a home test. My pregnancy with my son was a bit of a surprise because I did not think I would conceive without clomid again. I was late but had very irregular periods (if I had them at all) and did not think I was pg. I had a battery of bloodwork done as a pre-op appointment before scheduling elective surgery, and the pregnancy part was positive! With my next two pregnancies, I did keep the home tests in their baby memory boxes. Yes, I know it's gross and I peed on those things... but I just couldn't throw them out! LOL!
I took a picture of the very first one I took in the afternoon and the last one I took the next morning. I kept ALL FOUR I peed on - but 3 got icky (dollar store brand), so I threw those out. I still have the "non-dollar store" test in the bathroom drawer, in a baggie!! Not sure how long I'll hold onto it, but at least until my little man comes in March!!
I always felt bad hearing about BFPs; especially from women who it came easy to, but even a little bit with those I knew who had struggled. I just kept thinking "when is it my turn".
When we did IVF, I POAS 4 times up until my beta day and each day I'd line the sticks up and take a picture. I kept the picture of all 4 tests together.
I even held on to the tests for around a month (for no particular reason) before tossing them.
Good luck w/ your twins - I'm also expecting twins (girls) due March!
I'm really new to TTC. Tomorrow will be the day I'm supposed to get my period after going off BCP last month. I'll admit I've already POAS twice both with a negative result, and I am already jealous of BFP's. I know that I am freaking out way before it's necessary but all I've ever wanted is to have children and it's finally time to start trying.
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I thought about taking pictures of it and the decided against it. I mean...hey I PEED on that thing! It's hard when you are struggling to concieve and you see everyone around having it happen 'so easily'. It's normal to feel a littl dissapointment! But then, of course, it feels amazing when it does happen!
ethans_momma06 Nov. 6, 2009 at 12:20 PM