I think my heart is breaking and I just don't know what to do.
Before Christmas, my 14 year old broke down and told us she didn't want to live any more. We took her to a psychiatrist who put her on a low dose of anti-depressants and recommended a therapist who she has seen every week for the last month.
I looked at her instagram last night and my heart broke. Four new posts saying I have no reason to live. I lost it - I went to her room and brought her to the Family room and said she could not be alone. She was going to sleep with me, and I would pick her up from school and bring her back to work with me so she was not alone. I couldn't stop crying and told her that I couldn't risk her hurting herself because she is my world and I love her too much to let her hurt herself.
I can't stop crying. She goes to the therapist tomorrow, but I feel so helpless even though we are trying to get help. The psychiatrist increased the dose of her meds on Friday, but they take time to work.
Anyone have any ideas? I keep trying to show her how special she is (I bought her a bag of her favorite candy hearts on Saturday as a surprise), but she doesn't get it. I am afraid.
Thanks for listening.