I have written a number of posts here and the responses have helped so much. However, I am NOT computer savvy and although I try, I can't quite figure out who these go to, or how to reply individually, etc.
I just came home feeling great from my last surgical appointment, very upbeat. When I came inside I peeked into Nathan's room to see if he was home. He has been extremely mad at my husband and I for a few days (the worst ever) and when I looked in his room, his immpecably decorated (by him) room was just an empty shell. A few boxes packed, etc.
The feeling that came over me was so powerful and unexpected that it about knocked me over. I don't know why it is so, so strong this time (5 older ones have moved out over the years - no biggie). And quite frankly, it will be a relief when he does move out because our relationship is very strained right now. He is supposed to leave for Job Corp in a few weeks, but he cannot take all the stuff he has packed there. It will still be his room for the stuff he isnt alowed to bring, and for when he comes home for holidays.
I am not writing about him at this point - I am writing to hear from others who have gone though this. Because I am not even sure why I am crying. Why would getting a shock of seeing his room which was a fiesta of his personality turned suddenly clean, empty and basically vacant, hit me like this?