I had a huge mental breakdown last night over the smallest thing! I basically threatened to never help another child of mine with anything to do with going to college again. Ever. They are on their own. All of this because my son told me he decided not to do the extra credit to get his B in pre calculus up to an A. I completely freaked out and then pouted like a baby in my room until I fell asleep. I lashed out at my husband for not supporting me in making him do the report and told my son that I was finished helping him prepare for the ACT and would not be guiding him through the college admissions process over the next year.
I know this is irrational, and I know it's because I found out last week that my 18 year old freshman daughter is pregnant and is leaving college next week to move home and transfer to a local college. I helped my 23 year old get everyhting lined up and off to college only to have her move home after first semester (not pregnant) and enroll in a local college too. Then transfer again 2 more times!! I am SOOOO over college crap. All the work involved in getting them there, dorm decorations and set up, stressing over ACT tests, college applications and acceptance letters, tuition, financial aid applications etc etc etc and then have them home 4 months later.
My son refusing to write an extra credit report to get his grade to an A before finals was just the straw that broke the camels back. It would give him a 4.0 this semester and get him up to a 3.5 unweighted GPA and probably improve his class ranking ... all needed to qualify for good scholarships. I just feel like I am the only one who cares about anything to do with college here and my husband is always telling me to back off. I just need his support and I dont really have it most of the time. When I do, he only verbalizes a slight agreement after I go off on a rant for 15 minutes.
I am exhausted and feel like throwing in the towel. How in the world will my son make it off at college if he refuses to write a simple 1000 word essay on Issac Newton to get his grade up the 1.5 points he needs to get that A?
I just feel so overwhelmed and beat down.