I just had to commit my 13yo dd to the Psych Hospital ***UPDATE page 2*** ETA PG 4
Earlier tonight we had a bit of a blow up over her painting things with nail polish. It wouldn't be a big deal, but she paints things that she shouldn't. I could smell the polish in the living room and had gone to check and she refused to show me what she was doing. She kept trying to say that she was just painting her nails, but they had very obviously not been painted in a while.
Anyway the argument escalated because she was upset that I didn't trust her, which I really don't because she lies all the time. I sent her to bed. She was in her room and I could hear her moving around so I got up to check on her and found her sitting on the side of her bed with the cord from her fan wrapped around her neck. She had also been cutting herself again, she had several deep scratches on her forearm and her neck.
I took her to the ER, that's the way it has to be done here. They are keeping her for at least 72 hours so they can do a psych evaluation on her. They may put her on some anti-depressants too.
I know this is the best thing for her, but my heart is breaking. I feel like I failed her, even though I have had her in therapy for the last several years. Her grandfather died in April of 2010, she was pretty close to him and took it hard. Her dad died in January of 2011, she never really remembered him, but that just made his death a little harder for her. I think I feel like I failed because we don't have as close relationship as I would like. She didn't feel like she could talk to me.
Anyway that's for listening.