my 17 year will have the honor of bring a pallbearer for my mom.
for the hardest day of my life ,my son will have the biggest honor of all he will carrie my mom to her final resting place. he has asked me, mom is it ok to feel sad and happy at the same time, for the first time in my life i could not answer him i feel so bad i have never not been unable to give one of my children an answer for anything. my heart is so broken that my children are feeling my pain . and i am having a very hard time dealing with my own childrens pain.