couldn't even go to my 6 wks appointment (semi-vent)

the doctor that released me in the hospital keep trying over and over to get me to get my tubes tied, even after i said no. when i went to get my staples out she started up again about me needing to get on birth control or get my tubes tied. even the doctor that did the c-section told my dh that i didn't need to have anymore kids but wouldn't give him a reason why. i'm even fighting with family about the whole thing. the only person that seems to understand is my dh, but he understands why i don't want on birth control or to get my tubes tied. he has seen birth control mess me up bad (pills and the iud) so he is in agreement  about the others. when the doctor first started on the surgery even he said they will never cut me open again.

it's gotten to the point i didn't go in for my 6 weeks appointment and i hardly talk to family members anymore. everyone keeps telling me i'm finished having kids. when i don't know if i am or not. yeah i went through a month where i didn't want to think about having another baby. i did know i didn't want to get on any birth control and that it's really a matter of time. but i'm about to the point if i do get pregnant i'm thinking about not telling anyone, just let them find out on their own. then i don't know if i would even go to the hospital at all if i had another. and i will not let them take me to the back without my dh with me. just so they can hurt and not listen to me.