Hormones Hormones Hormones

[DaynaLea212]

Hi there everyone! I'm glad to say I'm writing this little piece this morning while I'm stable.. as the past 9 days have been anything but.

I am pregnant with my 2nd child, due July 9th 2010 and my life, my feelings, my hormones are OUT OF CONTROL. I am aware that things can get pretty crazy and that women can be Jekyl and Hyde through pregnancy but this is a bit ridiculous.

I would get weepy when I was preg. with my daughter Kaia and small, stupid things would set me off but it was NOTHING like this. I've kicked out my boyfriend (Jason) more times in the past week than anyone would care to know about, screaming at him, berating him, blaming him for everything I can think of and then turning around and making love to him and freaking out if he goes to the store. I've laid in bed wanting to go to sleep and never wake up and I've even gone so far as to make an appt with a family planning practice to terminate the pregnancy. Now I know that I would NEVER have the heart or mind to follow through with it as I do not particularly believe in abortion, but it's SUCH a strong feeling when it hits, that I've had to hide the baby things that we have purchased. I've had to hide any name books and my all mighty pregnancy bible "What to Expect" because seeing it sends me off the deep end. I cannot get excited about this pregnancy and it was planned. My daughter was a complete and total surprise and I was over the moon about having her. This time around I am anything but, and in turn it makes me feel guilty that I cannot connect with the life that is growing inside of me. I've had some good support from friends reassuring me that this too shall pass and with the 2nd trimester that I will find my smile again, but that is SO hard to accept when I have 6 more weeks until that magical turn. It's so hard to accept that when I keep thinking to myself.. "what if it DOESN'T change?" We've known about the pregnancy for almost 2 weeks now and 90% of that time has been spent in turmoil and my family and Jason are at their wits end already. My daughter (who's almost 6) and who is so excited to become a big sister, looks at me with scared and confused eyes and asks me why I'm crying all the time and why I won't play with her. I can't force myself to do a damn thing. Jason literally had to drag me off the couch yesterday and help me get dressed just to get me out of the house for a bit.

Please, someone tell me that this will ease up. Please, tell me if you had anything like this. Is there anything my Dr. can do for me that will calm me down without harming the babe? I feel like if I continue like this I will miscarry because the stress, the tremors, the violent episodes of hysterics etc cannot be healthy for either one of us.

[mmoleader]

 Talk to your doc about it. I am on an antidepressant, and there are many out there that are safe to take. Good luck momma, you can always vent to me. I waslike that with my last pregnancy, I could step outsideof myself and see that my behaavior was out of control, but still could not control it. So far my third pergnancy is better, but I started the antidepressants ages ago and never went off them.

[Stefanie83]

i would definitely talk to someone about it.  i know it is normal to be moody but at this point it's interfering a lot with your daily life so maybe talking to a doctor you can figure out something that can help...?

Our pregnancy was planned too and 75% of the time now i'm regretting it and just wishing i wasn't pregnant, and going crazy with worry about how we are going to handle it.  :(  i blame it on hormones too, and feeling sick and exhausted.  and i really hope i start to feel better about things in a few weeks  =(  my husband gets upset when i say that i don't think i will love this baby as much, and that s/he'll just be taking time away from my 2 year old son, who i love so much!