HEY EVERYONE!!! ME AND MY FIANCE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER FOR 8 1/2 YRS! I AM NOW 22 YRS OLD, SO HES MY 1&ONLY ((LITTERALY)) lol WE'RE GETTING MARRIED ON *09.10.11*
WE FOUND OUT WE WERE PREGNANT IN AUG.2009.THINGS WERE PERFECT! WE WERE SOOO HAPPY, WE WENT TO OUR FIRST DOCTORS APPT AND HEARD THE HEARTBEAT, WE BOTH CRIED LIKE BABIES OURSELVES! lol THE NURSE SAID EVEYTHING LOOKED BEAUTIFUL. THEN WHEN I WAS ABOUT 10 WEEKS WE WENT FOR OUR 2ND ULTRASOUND, THEY NOTICED SOMETHING WAS WRONG. THE BABY WASNT RELEASING THE AMNEOTIC FLUID, IT WAS ALL IN ITS STOMACH. NOBODY KNEW WHY. I DID FETAL MRI'S, WENT TO A BUNCH OF DIFFERENT SPECIALISTS AND NOT ONE OF THEM COULD FIGURE OUT WHAT WAS GOING ON. IT KILLED ME TO SEE THE LIL ONE MOVING ON THE MONITER, KNOWING SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH MY LIL BABY. I FELT SO HELPLESS. AS A MOTHER YOU LOVE IT SOOO MUCH AND WANT TO PROTECT YOUR BABY . SO GOING ON EVERYDAY KNOWING I COULDNT DO ANYTHING TO REVERSE WHAT WAS HAPPENING HURT ME SO MUCH.
I WAS 15 WEEKS WHEN MY DOCTOR TOLD ME THINGS WERE JUST GETTING WORSE AND THE BEST THING FOR ME TO DO WAS TO STOP THE PREGNANCY SO I WOULDNT END UP PUTTING MYSELF IN DANGER.
I CAN REMEMBER IT LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY. THE FEELING I HAD WHEN I HEARD THAT IS A FEELING I CANT EXPLAIN BUT A FEELING I NEVER EVER WANT TO FEEL AGAIN. WE WERE DEVISTANED TO SAY THE LEAST. I HAD JUST STARTED TO FELL MY BABY MOVE ABOUT 2 WEEKS BEFORE THE PROCIDURE :(
TURNS OUT IT WAS A GIRL. I CAN STILL SEE HER LIL EXACT PROFILE FROM THE ULTRASOUND IN MY HEAD CLEAR AS DAY :) I CAN TELL SHE HAD LIL CHUBBY CHEEKS LIKE ME! :) BUT SHE IS MY GUARDIAN ANGEL NOW AND I SPEAK TO HER EVERYDAY JUST AS IF SHE WERE HERE WITH ME. (SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN ABOUT 7MO. NOW) =(
SO IT HAS BEEN ALMOST EXACTLY 1YR AND WE WANT TO TRY AGAIN. OF COURSE I AM SCARED TO DEATH BECAUSE I NEVER WANT TO GO THROUGH ANYTHING LIKE THAT AGAIN; BUT WE WANT A BABY MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD AND I KNOW WE WILL BE GREAT PARENTS.
SO I FOUND THIS WEB SITE AND DECIDED TO SHARE OUR JOURNEY WITH YOU! :) IF ANYONE HAS BEEN THROUGH A SIMILAR SITUATION, PLEASE SHARE. I AM HERE FOR SUPPORT AND ALSO TO GIVE MY SUPPORT TO OTHERS :) I KNOW THIS GROUP IS FOR WOMAN WHO HAVE HAD MISACCRIAGES BUT THIS WAS THE ONLY GROUP I COULD FIND THAT IS CLOSE TO WHAT IM FEELING....
THANK YOU. I WOULD HAVE RATHER HAD A MISCARRIAGE! I THOUGH I WOULD NEVER SAY THOSE WORDS BUT ITS SO TRUE. I WAS ALREADY SOO FAR ALONG! I MEAN, SHE WAS THERE!!! AN ACTUAL BABY...MOVING AND EVERYTHING. IT WOULD HAVE BEEN MUCH EASIER IN THE EARLIER STAGES WHEN ITS JUST A "EMBRYO" YA KNOW. IT WAS DEFINANTLY THE HARDEST MOST HEARTBREAKING DESICION IVE EVER HAD TO MAKE :(
SO EVEN THO ITS HARD, JUST THINK....IT COULD HAVE BEEN WORSE! THANK YOU FOR THE HUGS :)
THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH! THOSE WORDS REALLY MENT ALOT TO ME :)
my bff went thru a similar situation 19 m ago. she n i were pregnant w our 2nd kids together - (we also were with our firsts) but at 17 weeks she found out her lil boys rib cage had stopped growing n was crushing his lil insides so much so that by the time she was 23 weeks fluid was building in his lil brain n in his lungs ... it was terminal and he didnt survive much longer...she also had to make a very hard descision & she gave birth to her sleeping baby boy 3 days later- 2 wks before i had my healthy son - it was very hard for everyone and a heaviness wieghed on our friendship... i tried to comfort and support her as much as i could as much as i was allowed . i gave her time - which she def needed . i still support her thru her memories and im almost positive im the only one who talks openly about him with her . but he was here he mattered . i gave her a special necklace on his birthday this yr to let her know i remembered and was thinking of her . no one else said a word to her that day . .....
she since has had a healthy baby girl whos now 3 m old !
sorry for the rambling hahah i def know what ur talking about tho and its very possible after a loss to have healthy n happy pregnancies i guess is what im trying to say - i myself have had 3 m/cs- earlier ones tho- the longest one was at 13 weeks- the latest one being on Nov 1st 2010- i was 10 weeks. ((((( hugs)))) and lotsa sticky healthy ***baby dust*** to you .
@meagan517-- IM SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR MISCARRIAGE :( IT SURE DOES MAKE YOU HAVE A TOTALLY DIFFERENT OUTLOOK ON PREGNANCY. NOT THAT PEOPLE WHO HAVENT EXPERIANCED A LOSS DONT APPRICIATE IT, BUT ITS JUST SOOO MUCH MORE PRECIOUS TO ME NOW. HAVEING A HEALTHY BABY DEFINANTLY IS A MIRICLE.
YES. WE DECIDED TO TRY AGAIN ABOUT 6MO AGO BUT SADLY NOTHING YET.... :(
@GabeNGriffsMomi --WOW! THAT REALLY TOUCHED MY HEART. IT TRUELY IS A HORRIBLE THING TO GO THROUGH. I AM SOOOO HAPPY TO HEAR SHE HAS A HEALTHY BABY NOW :) THANK SOOO MUCH FOR SHARING HER STORY WITH ME. IT DEFINANTLY GIVES ME MORE HOPE.
I AM SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR RECENT MISCARRIAGES :( IT MUST BE SO HARD. DO THE DOCTORS HAVE ANY IDEA OF WHAT MIGHT BE GOING ON?
@ GabeNGriffsMomi -- OH, I FORGOT TO MENTION, ABOUT 3 DAYS AFTER I HAD FOUND OUT SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH MY LIL ANGEL, ONE OF MY GOOD FRIENDS FOUND OUT SHE WAS PREGNANT...((SHE WAS TRYING TO GET PREGNANT SO WE COULD SHARE OUR PREGNANCIES TOGETHER. SHE HAD A NORMAL, HEALTHY PREGNANCY AND BABY BOY WHO IS ABOUT 6MO OLD NOW.)) BUT WE ARE NO LONGER FRIENDS BECAUSE OF HER PREGNANCY. I JUST FOUND IT REALLY HARD TO BE HAPPY FOR HER WHEN I WAS LOSING MINE...I WAS DEFINANTLY A REALLY BITTER PERSON TOWARDS PREGNANCY. I COULDNT HEAR OR TALK ABOUT PREGNANCY WITHOUT GETTING THIS HORRILE PIT IN MY STOMACH. AND FOUND IT REALLY HARD TO BE HAPPY FOR PEOPLE WHO WERE GETTING PREGNANT....IT WAS PRETTY BAD.
I AM OVER THAT NOW BUT IT BROKE UP ONE OF MY FRIENDSHIPS AND I JUST CANT SEEM TO GET OVER IT.
BUT ANYWAY, I JUST WANTED TO SAY I HOPE SHE DIDNT HAVE THE SAME BITTERNESS TOWARDS YOU AND THAT YOU TWO ARE STILL BFF'S!! :)
Quoting PRAYING4ABABY88:
@ GabeNGriffsMomi -- OH, I FORGOT TO MENTION, ABOUT 3 DAYS AFTER I HAD FOUND OUT SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH MY LIL ANGEL, ONE OF MY GOOD FRIENDS FOUND OUT SHE WAS PREGNANT...((SHE WAS TRYING TO GET PREGNANT SO WE COULD SHARE OUR PREGNANCIES TOGETHER. SHE HAD A NORMAL, HEALTHY PREGNANCY AND BABY BOY WHO IS ABOUT 6MO OLD NOW.)) BUT WE ARE NO LONGER FRIENDS BECAUSE OF HER PREGNANCY. I JUST FOUND IT REALLY HARD TO BE HAPPY FOR HER WHEN I WAS LOSING MINE...I WAS DEFINANTLY A REALLY BITTER PERSON TOWARDS PREGNANCY. I COULDNT HEAR OR TALK ABOUT PREGNANCY WITHOUT GETTING THIS HORRILE PIT IN MY STOMACH. AND FOUND IT REALLY HARD TO BE HAPPY FOR PEOPLE WHO WERE GETTING PREGNANT....IT WAS PRETTY BAD.
I AM OVER THAT NOW BUT IT BROKE UP ONE OF MY FRIENDSHIPS AND I JUST CANT SEEM TO GET OVER IT.
BUT ANYWAY, I JUST WANTED TO SAY I HOPE SHE DIDNT HAVE THE SAME BITTERNESS TOWARDS YOU AND THAT YOU TWO ARE STILL BFF'S!! :)so from that point on i didnt talk about my pregnancy
the drs rnt sure why it keeps happening - i have had 2 healthy boys . i guess all i can do is pray n hope the next time will be ok .
yes we are still very very close thankfully . we made it thru it all . when she found out something was wrong at 16- 17 weeks i was already almost 8m along - it was hard. so from that point on i didnt talk about my pregnancy, i tried to hide it - by sitting w pillows in my lap or by wearing large hoodies as much as i could- i figured she knew i was pregnant she didnt need it shoved in her face. when we were around her family n they would ask about how i was doing i would change the subject . i told her not to feel pressured to come to the hospital when i had him or even come see him after we were home . like i said she gave birth to her son 2 weeks exactly to the day my DS#2 was born . it was so hard . esp since her whole family wanted to pretend it never happened n wouldnt talk about him . we spent alot of time just talking and crying. i knew being around me was hard for her . i even offered to stay away .... she was super strong tho . she was honestly excited for my son to come and def wanted to be around him and me eventho she was being torn apart. . i cant imagine how hard it was for her . but w time iit got easier-i think sometimes holding my son helped her a lil & like i said i think it helps her to talk about him and i openly do that all the time even now 19 m later - her family pretends it never happened and He DEF DID HAPPEN!
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- PRAYING4ABABY88
on Nov. 18, 2010 at 12:20 AM