Lost and confused....

[cteal15]

So my DH and I have 2 angel babies, April 2011 (9 weeks) and October 2011 (6 weeks). We are TTC but I'm lost. I would love to have another baby, we have 2 DS 5 and 3, but I'm so afraid of becoming pregnant again for fear that it will just end in MC again. I'm not late yet, AF due in 7 days but I can't even get my hopes up that I will get a BFP. Has anyone felt this way before? Is this normal? I'm so confused and lost!! Thanks for reading.

[jmerussgirl]

I am sorry for you losses.  In my opinion, yes it is very normal.  I have had two early miscarriages, one at 6 weeks and another at 13 weeks (baby stopped growing at 9 weeks).  I did have two kids after having those miscarriages, one getting pregnant before my check up from the d and c.  I had a stillborn after having successful pregnancies and honestly I am feeling the same way that I will never get pregnant, even though we never really had to try hard, it is easy to get pregnant for us, but as my doctor keeps telling me that he knows the process works because I have healthy kids and if you stop because of fear then your fear wins.  He has been so encouraging about the whole process.  I also read a couple of books, An empty craddle a full heart, Journey Stories of Successful Pregnancies after Loss (I think...it is a blue book with a butterfly).  They were very encouraging to read what others have went through and then to experience a successful pregnany.  Has your doctor looked into why you are possibly miscarrying?  If you ever want to chat feel free to message me.  Hope you get a bfp that sticks!! 

[cteal15]

Thank you for your reply! I'm definitely going to look into those books, I need some reassurance. It hasn't been difficult for us either it's just keeping the baby that's not working anymore. My doc wasn't much help, she tested my levels to make sure I'm ovulating, which apparently I was since I got pregnant but that was it. She said they normally don't do anything more until the 3rd mc, hope that doesn't happen. Doesn't make any sense to me. She wasn't much help at all! I read from someone else on CM that she's heard vitamin D is very important so I'm going to start taking some and hope for the best. I'm sorry for your losses and thanks again.

[BeautyFromPain]

I'm in the same boat as you/ I have a 4 year old DS and a 2 year old DD and have had 2 miscarriages after having them. My doctor does not do anything until 3 MC's either. She says its so common to MC that there is not much they can do. So I am REALLY hoping for my rainbow baby this month I am on CD 10 and should be ovulating this week or next so I'm really praying!!  Like you though I know that BFP does not guarauntee anything but I am scared but HOPEFUL too!