There are so many things I hate about my house. And don't get me started on the guilt I feel about this. I have a 4-bedroom, 2.5-bathroom home in a great neighborhood. I should be thrilled that we live here. Some people are homeless. Others have to cram large families into 1-2 bedroom apartments. I know I should be thankful. I am grateful for what we have, for sure, though sometimes I forget.
But, there are times (like when I am stuck inside for months on end during winter) where I really start to notice all the little things I HATE about my house. We are trying so hard to save money so we can make updates, but it is hard to save a lot of money when I am a SAHM and we have 3 kids. I know this is the life I chose and it meant sacrifices, and I accept that. We don't have debt (aside from our mortgage and a car payment that's done next Jan). We are great with budgeting. We don't spend money we don't have. It's soooo hard to look through the Sunday paper at all the ads and see all the cool stuff I would love to get for the house, but we just don't have the money for it... Or to see home improvement shows where people turn their drab homes into something amazing... Or to be on Pinterest and see all these AMAZING design ideas or organization things you can do with your home... We just don't have the money. I mean, we do have the money, but we need to SAVE the money so we can do those things.
This is a hard things for me, because when I see a problem I want it fixed immediately. I do not want to wait 2 years. But unfortunately, a lot of the problem spots in our house are EXPENSIVE fixes. We just got a quote on our master bathroom. I told the guy I did not want anything fancy... just wanted a fresh start in there. Guess what the quote was... $12K. Yup. Just for mediocre, we have to spend $12K on our bathroom. Sigh. We don't have that much saved yet. No where near.
I am trying to start spring cleaning to make myself hate the house less. I think if things were more organized and looked cleaner, I might not dislike it so much. Today I spent 3 HOURS, a full 3 hours, detailing our disgusting refrigerator -- the one appliance we did not replace when we moved in back in 2007. I completely disassembled the inside of it. Fridge and freezer. I even used a toothbrush and Q-tips to get into every single nook and cranny. It is really clean now. I am happy about it. It was horrid before. I am not sure why I let it get to that point. Parts of it had seriously never been cleaned since we moved it, since I could not figure out before how to get the base shelf out. Nasty. I wanted to throw up a couple times. For real. Ugh. Looking back, it is pretty embarassing that I let it get to that point. But, now it is clean and I feel loads better.
And with that one small cleaning job done, I feel just a smidge better about the house as a whole. I hope to continue to do these cleaning jobs over the next week since the kids are home for spring break and the weather is too crappy to do much else.
Has anyone else started spring cleaning yet? What have you done?
on Mar. 23, 2013 at 3:14 PM