Wow Danielle33, you have described me exactly. I have 2 boys, 15 1/2 and 9. I am so worried about them because of the way they see me. I do not go down to FL every Spring Break, because I just do not want to go so far away from home. I am very anxious being more than 2 hours away. I am afraid of freaking out and not being able to be in my "safe place". I also have been diagnosed with Bipolar 2 1/2 years ago. The meds that I am on, give me the shakes and make me more anxious because I am so self conscious about it. I don't work due to the panic, anxiety, social, and bipolar disorder. I am so frustrated that it controls my life like it does. I am going to try to get on Cafemom regularly. Need to go pick up the little one from school.