Emergency has kept me from ...
I hope your all doing ok.. or as good as you can.. :)
Ive been pushed to my limits this last few weeks as my mother came for a visit and then a few days later ended up in the hospital. She has what is called an over active thyroid. Sadly it was so bad that he raised her heart beat to a dangerous level and her blood pressure. She was given meds that then lowered everything very low.. she ended up in ICU for a few days and now she is again in a room of her own.
I almost lost her and I was so scared I didn't want to think of losing her.. no one does.. but.. with me I lost my gram and that killed me inside.. to lose my mom would really not be a good thing.
You all know I haven't left this town in over 2 yrs.. It's hard and I have agoraphobia. Well I went to see her 2 hours away it was a long very long drive. I was pushed so far out of my comfort zone I was scared of what would happen. When I got to her all those worries and anxiety did pass. I was happy!! Till I left and had to again travel 2 hours home. It all came rushing back.
Today I shall make that trip again.. I know that I can do it as I did it 4 days ago. It's going to be hard again and we are leaving at 12noon so that makes a huge difference as I am better in the morning.. I am using again my mother as the main focus and praying hard. It took so much out of me and I know this will as well.. but to me this isn't an option.
Anyway .. this is why I haven't been in the group active wise.. or sending bulletins.. I wish I could find a co mod.. I've been through so many but they never seem to want to be one after so long:(
I will keep you all posted.. hang in there every one.. You are loved.. and cared for..