Oh come on I want a break!

[ascmyworld]

You think you are doing okay and then something comes up and then you are right back at square 1. ever since my anxiety has been high last year I have started out on Paxil low dose of 5 mgs b/c my Dr knows how much anxiety I get from needing to take meds. I was up to 60 mgs then had to cut down do to not affording the meds. Then just this weekend I got the 40 mg tablet and cut it in half to get my body used to it again. Then BAM I got my 2nd EVER Ocular Migraine. I feel it is medication caused 1st time was. The Dr.'s are telling me no. Then tonight i got the "C" formation in the right eye out of no where. The other times it was my left eye. My left arm keeps aching so bad. My anxiety is through the roof. I am thinking that things are wrong with me and mind is gone away with it and I am scared all over again. I can't take the anxiety anymore the waiting to see what will happen. I can't shut me off anymore. Good Lord I just want myself back the way it used to be.