Just not meant to be???

[MommyTurtle1985]

  In my previous post i was talking about the " leader " lady for the volunteer people at the local hospital.

Well today was the meeting and you know what?! It was a disaster from the min i steped into the building. Im so upset right now that all i've been doing is crying. We got there late. I was under the impression that the thing started at freaking 9:30 and of course no i was wrong. It was 9 am. I took my time, stopping at the over expensive coffee shop in the hospital's 1st floor to get coffee and a few things for Courtney. We get up there and all the seats are taken. So I have to make a big scene with the chairs, and my bag and the table. It was a really uncomfortable feeling. Then sitting there not even 6-7 mins later, i notice that Courtney's diaper is leaking poop down her tights. so great i have to get my bag together, get courtny up, so was fussing because she didn't want to give me the juice to put a lid onit. Great. Every one gave me that ' oh you brought a kid" look. I mean they're all freaking retired old ladies and men with nothing better to do but hang out at the hospital on weekday mornings.  I took her to the bath room and as soon as she go up from the chair the chair was stained. OH GOSH....how embarrassing. Then to add to that moment, her juice bottle has spilt all over the table onto the floor and uhhhh........nightmare.

 

Im too embarrased to go back in there....i just cant face those people again. I feel like they're singling me out. JUst the looks on those people's faces was enought to have me just say fuck it. I'll somewhere else to volunteer in the community. If they're gonna have that attitude than whatever. But i cryed the whole way home because all i wanted was 1 hour and 30 min for this meeting. Why do i feel so worthless! I dont think i want to work with old poeple, they're cranky. I feel depressed and I know i probably shouldn't but i do.

[shell1m]

Sorry about your day.  I think people who's children have all grown up forget how hard the day to day job is of raising little ones.  I've been there and know how embarrassing it is when just normal life causes a scene for you.  (((hugs)))   BUT just think back over the day and think of something funny or cute that ya'll did together, that always makes me chuckle.  :)