I don't ask for much, if ever. I wish, I want and I have needs. My needs are as basic as they can possibly be. I continue to wish and want but always put my families needs before mine. Wants are just that, wants. One day, I will get them, or at least I hope to but in reality the wants aren't important and needs are. I understand this.
What I don't understand is how my family can be so utterly thoughtless. Now I know to some this may come off as selfish and I know deep down that I should be very grateful that I have a two healthy kids and a husband because that's all that matters. I know this, I keep telling myself this but I still can't help but to be hurt. I'm really trying not to be, but I am.
Neither one o0f my kids wished me a happy Mothers day until later this evening when Ron told them to. Nick bitched and complained about not having his car and wanting to hurry up and get home because we were gone too long. Jessica was just a plain old spoiled brat today with an attitude and a smart mouth.
Ron has asked me whats wrong and I told him but he still keeps asking me. Well DUH how many times do I have to tell him. I will not repeat myself I told him once and IMO that is once more than I should have had to.
I didn't so much as receive a card today from Ron or the kids. Ron claimed he was broke after buying the boat parts. Well, it's not like we get paid once a month or even bi weekly. We both get paid weekly. He knows Mothers day is coming. It comes every year on a Sunday. Is it so hard to set aside 20 minutes and 5 dollars for a simple card and time to go get one?
He's said sorry a few times but that don't even cut it for me.
Granted I haven't worked in the past 20 years but I've always done something for him on his birthday and or any other special occasion. Even if it was just making one of his favorite dinners and his favorite cake and I always got him at the very least a card. Just to show him that he is appreciated and loved. That's all I asked for. Not even a card but for Gods sake show me that you at least care.
I was so excited to actually for the first time in 20 years to be able to buy my Mo with my won money her gift for Mothers day. I was looking forward to fathers day as this year I could buy Ron something with my own money.
See I think like this. I think ahead. I think about them all of the time. I honestly don't think they ever think about me or what I need. Not want but need!
Today I woke up at 8:00. Had my tea, did the dishes, swept the floors, wiped down the counters, cut the lawn picked up the dog poop and all of them lazy asses were still sleeping.
I had to wake them up to go to brunch with my Mom for Mothers day or they wouldn't have even gotten out of bed.
I'm rambling now, sorry! I just needed to vent.