I rather serve my country then stay home with kids.
It's been driving me insane being a stay at home mom and my dh makes me feel like crap like I have it easy. I've been feeling like shit and my house is a total mess when before we had our son I used to be a neat freak and have everything spotless.
I really hate it. I've been talking to recruiters since I was 14 and had my mind set on enlisting until I found out I was pregnant the week I was suppose to take my asvab. I feel like my life ended there. But I did good after a while of being depressed I got my shit together, got my ged, ID, got a job and everything all in 2 weeks time.
That was a year ago. Now I've done nothing. Stayed at home and took care of our son and it's driving me insane! I'm 21 and have until my 22nd birthday to enroll in school for free since I was in foster care or my benefits are gone. He wants me to go to school online (FUCK THAT) I can't stay at home 24/7 I need to get OUT.
He tries to make it seem like I'm trying to abandon him when I do leave on weekends if he doesn't want to go anywhere. I just go drive to see my family because I can't stay home all day everyday and stay sane. He doesn't want to see them anyway he hates my family and its not fair he expects me to stay home all day everyday and then makes me feel bad because I don't want to.
Since I already registered for school I'm planning on going in fall. Maybe asking my family to watch our son and then get degree and either getting a job or start talking to recruiters again. I've wanted to serve for as long as I remember. My mom wants me to do the navy but since dh is army I was thinking of doing that or airforce since they have some join bases with army/airforce.
It's hard staying home and props to anyone who enjoys it because it's not for me. I need to socialize. I need to be on my feet and I need to get out. I can't drive myself insane doing nothing all day. I need to be around people. I rather get bitched at all day then stay home.
I don't even feel like doing anything until dh gets home and then when I try to get shit done he wants me to watch baby. Because he's been at work all day and is tired. I wish I had that excuse. If only I had a job so I don't have to Clean or take care of a baby all day.
He tells me it's not hard watching tv and playing all day and eating and taking naps when I please. REALLY? I just cant.... it really pissed me off when he says shit like that.
Or when I'm trying to cook and he wants me to hold baby. Okay but of he cooks I also have to hold baby. So, every excuse. You can't cook and watch baby but when I cook 90% of the time I have to? Gtfo I'm just done. I cant. He thinks me getting a job is me trying to leave him
Me getting a job is me trying to help support our family as well as me keeping my sanity. If he wants to stay home after I get a job he can, but I've already decided I'm just sick of the bullshit and excuses.