Hello, I have been married for 17 years.. we have had our ups & downs, And at a point when things were going well, I went behind his back and spoke with an old boyfriend from college, felt horrible and confessed...Since then things have been worse and because of his hurt , he has treated me like crap..There has always been emotional abuse..unintentional or not, it is there.
We have 5 children, and my 2 older girls have been affected by his behavior, they see the way he is and the way he speaks to me/them... they really dont like him at this point..
Recently it has gotten so bad that I wanted him to leave..and I took the weeknd away to think..And have decided to try to work this out..He has good intentions but goes about dealing with situations the wrong way.. Not saying I do it right either.. I am inconsistant, and try to ignore problems when they arise..
But since we sat down as a family together and discussed the fact that I asked him to leave... my girls want him gone..My oldest daughter who is 15 has threaten to run away, and says she is tired of her life this way, (she has been grounded for failing grades) I don't want to take this lightly nor do I want them to control or run over me.
I know I have made many mistakes and feel like a failure....